Unbearable

Today he came to pick me up from work....

It had been so long since i saw him...
At first when i sat in the car, everything was a bit awarkard...
And it seems lyk so near yet so far....

Everything is so diff...but one thing for sure, i noe he still cares for me a lot a lot.
He is selling away the car so not only he came to take the spare key from me and oso find an excuse to see me :)

We tok all along the way back...
I can see tat he is disappointed in me...
It's partly my fault tat brought everything to this...
And i noe i must be responsible for wat i've done...
I Love Him....I do love him as much still....
But for the tym being now, i'll learn to be independent....for him :)

1 month.....
we have compromise to give each other 1 month to think abt it....
or perhaps it mite shorten...cox i noe our love is still as strong...
we both hugged for the last tym and both went back w red sore eyes....
pinky finger to keep our promise.....

I'll promise to behave myself...
I'll promise not to drink so much...
I'll promise to learn to be more independent...
I'll promise to learn to take good care of myself more...
I'll promise to learn to eat my meals more regurlarly...

I'm sorry for hurting u....
I'm sorry for not treasuring u....
I'm sorry for wat i've said...

I Love You.
I Love You.
I Love You.

Let this 1 month be a test for our 4yrs rltsp....
I believe we can go thru this....
I will miss you during this 1 month ^^

Apart

Supposingly it's April Fool tdy which everyone will be telling lies and bluffing ppl ard.

But i jus did a extreme thing...which my jie mei all thinks i am telling a lie.

I told him that i would lyk to be single for the time being and will continue to stay single even aft we seperate...and telling him tat i'd lyk him to woo me back inorder to gain back the sweetness and feelings we once have for each other.

And he replied, ya sure. maybe we can go seperate ways first den meanwhile see if both of us still holds any feeling for each other.

It may sound outragerous or out of the sudden. But this tym it's lyk really the end alr. 4yrs and 4mths....it wasnt easy to have such a long term relationship and plus somemore it's my first and only 1.

I will miss his ah pek bee...
I will miss his hao fang ness...
I will miss his morning kiss...
I will miss his good nite kiss....
I will miss his clumsy-ness...
I will miss his muay thai kick...
I will miss his loves and kisses...
I will miss his complaining why owayx he wanna go home still need to stand at my doorsteps for so long...
I will miss his laziness....
I will miss him.....
(and the list goes on and on)

I dunnoe wat i did is it wrong or right...but i hope we'll be back tgt again soon...
And for the tym being....i am offically single now...and waiting for him to return <3